Saturday, October 15, 2016


my dear angel
you must be tired
you must want peace
be alone for few minutes
be able to relax
with no demands
with no wants

so much to do
so little to gain

my dear angel 
with your beautiful eyes
with your shy smile
with your soft touch
with your silence and those tears in your eyes

my dear angel
you came to my life
when i thought
there is no color only black and white
all skies were gray
covered by dark clouds

with your white wings
flying in my life
not staying too long
you turned the gray clouds to orange
you made me to enjoy the sun rise again
you let me to look forward for Thursdays
regardless if the had prelude of dace or just memory of dancing

you brought the bright light to my life
you made me smile
you tough me to be content
you touched my sole
to forget my painful past and dream about future

you thought me that 
i can fall in love again
i can be in love
full of dreams

all i want from you
is to be happy
with no worry
with no fear
i only want your happiness 
i only want your peace
i only want you to open any door without fear
i only want you to be happy

finishing your book
think about our dreams
covering yourself in white clouds
not worrying about attacking feathers

remember the shore, sand and the sun sets to come

oh my beautiful angel
remember my name

.. more than possible

 Yahya ..

Line and Curve

سالها در فكر او بودم 
سالها در فكر تماس
سألها در انديشه ان ابر سفيد
لمس كردن ان خط روان
حس كردن ان منحنى حيات 
و  دانش ان كه 
پىوستن خط به انحناست 
كه تعريف مى كند لذت هستى را
و در ان تپش حيات 
و در ان لذت اگاهى 
به من جان ميدهد جان

سالها به فكر او بودم 
سالها مى دانستم 
بفكر من است
شعر مرا خوانده 
و بفكر من اگاهست 
و مى داند 
من در انديشه ابرها 
در فكر ان خط روان 
در فكر ان قطره اب 
در فكر ان منحنى حيات 

پس از اين شب تاريك و طولانى
إبر هاى سفيد را مى بينم
مه در روى زمين را پوشانده 
و  مى توانم منحنى زيباى
     ان قطره اب را كمس كنم


In an island 
far away from the empty sounds
far away from mundane day to day work
I see shadow of you 
standing behind the glass
in the future, white and blue

In an island
far away from our commitments 
where our only companion are lonely crows 
that contain us within their discrete sounds
I see us covered in the white clouds 
without any intruding feathers in the future

We'll do it all
on our own
without waiting for the moon and sun to align 

We don't need
or anyone
to join in our dace to the end of time

If I dream here 
If I just dream that you are here with me
would dream with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
how to say
how I feel

Those three words
are said too much
they're not enough

If I close my eyes here
If I just close my eyes here
would you close your eyes with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden that's bursting into life
I want to touch those beautiful magnolias

I want to merge within the waterfall

I need your beautiful eyes
to remind me
to find my path forward

If I touch here
If I just touch here
would you touch me once and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
before we get too old
show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
all that I ever was
is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
confused about how as well
just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
if I just lay here
would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Yahya +
Chasing Cars +
Snow Patrol

Cold and Dark

It is cold and dark
Can hear rain droplets hitting the window
I am lost in the mist and rain
in this lonely night
losing my dream,  one x at the time
because can't control myself
Because it is a vertical Cliff to ascend  

I am freezing slowly
within this cold world
everywhere is surrounded by darkness and cold
you are not covering me with your warmth
you are hiding from me behind a filter of politeness

I am freezing slowly
want to get back to your bright side
don't want to cry so much
don't want to lose you again

i started to dream about those discrete white lines
in the road to unknown 
Where mountains are white 
And valley are dark
so fast 
so bright

i started to think about the soft white shell 
cold and feel like snow
i started to dream about flying from the peak
so nice

i want you to be mine
independent of what i do with this world of darkness and pain
free from P and E complines
just be mine with no conditions
no boxes to cross
no constraints

i know it is an impossible dream
but that is the hope i have

will you let me have my dream

Yahya ..

Thursday, October 6, 2016



Stop all the clocks, cut off the WiFi,
Prevent my  iPhone from beeping with a message,
Turn off the music and changed it with sound of my heart
Bring out the cloud, let the everyone leave. 

Let planes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message that SHE IS GONE,
Change the numbers so there is no 84,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves. 

She was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week,  my VBA and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.


based on W. H. Auden poem.

Sunday, November 2, 2014

You are ..

You are my everything
You are the sun that shines on me and makes me so happy
You are the force that drives my existence
Only you, my love

If you dance with me
I feel that your essence is merged with me
There's not a space between us
You are my light

You are my everything
Forever and always
Since I saw you
I'll never have any fear of life
I want to fly with you to distant stars

Will fly by you
In a world where only your love rules
Leaving the lake behind us
Just you and me

You are my everything
Forever and always
Since I saw you
I'll never have any fear, for your love again I felt
And reborn

Dance with me today
On a white cloud in the sky
Your eyes shine like stars
For me, for my love

Sixty five

Two rooms
Fourteen steps
An old elevator with missing E from BG
Droplets of water on the glass
Dark outside
White or creamy color doors
Black prime number with a null integer
Standing there waiting for it to open

Two rectangles covered by blankets
Empty cages on the wall
My dream is hidden behind the door
So beautiful
Moving my hand up and down
Sensing the band around my desire

Will I be able to release the Js from Us one handed
Will I be able to touch the soft triangle
Will I be able to rest my head in between those beautiful magnolias
Will I be able to taste the milk and honey
Will I be able to feel the heat
Will I be able to open the door to the world of pleasures
Will I be able to touch the hidden circles with in circles
Will I be able to hear the sound of Angels murmuring
that " I am coming"

Will I
Will I

Two white rectangles uncovered
Separated by a black void
A virtual sword in between
The Js are now alone resting on the table

The soft beautiful triangle is hidden from view
I can taste honey and it's aroma
I can rest my head on top of white magnolia
I can taste heat, clockwise, counter clockwise
I can trace the valley of pleasures up and down
And stop at the boundary of softness and heat
Touch the where the circles within circles are hidden beneath the green and blue
Touch the boundaries left and right

Oh it is so nice
Oh it is so perfect

I can die now happy full of joy
The green and blue birds are flying to the wall
The magical warmth is reachable
There is a sense of coming in the air 

I am flying in the air
Between the white and void in between
And getting filled by  pleasure not explainable
Gentle touch
Gentle pull
Gentle smile

I can touch the warmth
I can open the passage to the hidden pleasure
I can touch the circles within circles
I can only see glimpse of the beautiful green
I can taste the honey
I can feel the softness new hidden valley

I am dreaming of flying into clouds
Everywhere is so soft like a velvet
Every touch is returned with a touch

Will I bring sadness to this perfect world
If I stop flying and merge into the unbelievable softness
Will I bring tears on to those beautiful eyes
If I connect every part of my being with its perfect matching part
And merge within
Will I
Will I

One rectangle alone
Distanced from its partner
The magical sword has disappear in the void
Should I
Should I

Then suddenly the world changes clockwise
I can see the pain of turning
I can feel the touch
I can hear the whisper

I am in my backyard garden
Underneath the beautiful magnolia tree
With flowers all above me
I can touch their soft body
And see and touch their red stems
So warm
So full of life
In tune perfectly in harmony with the wind
Synchronized with my hearth beat
Synchronized with my being
 Like two pair of leafs
 Dancing in the gentle winds
I can pull it toward me
The one that I dream about
I can touch my perfect triangle
I can feel my soft valley and it's waves
I can sense moist covering it up
I can see that the cherry blossoms are full
I can smell the aroma of perfect feeling

The world is turned back again
I am lying down next to the heat
Should I merge
Should I
I merge with the river of softness
I can feel that every part of my being
Is filled with tinkling sensation
Wanting more
Wanting to dance
Wanting to become one
Wanting to taste
Wanting to dance

Wanting to be one
Wanting to stop time
Wanting to last forever
Wanting to be one

I rediscover the soft little valley hidden below the mountain
I can feel the birds of pleasures flying
I can sense the vibration
I can feel the time has come
I can see the narrow edge of seeing closing
I can sense the doors to my heaven tightening
I can feel the coming of joy
I can feel the waterfall surrounding me
I can feel that the heart beats are slowing down

I know this might be my last flight
I know this might be my last encounter with pleasure
But can I force my want
Can I ask for more

The world stops
The time stops
I can hear the rain drop at the window
My hearth beat stops
I can see the beautiful green circles
Full of joy
Full of wanting to be yours

I can see the white tiger entering
I can see the pain of Turing
I can see the beautiful magnolia disappearing

So soft
So perfect
So pleasurable
So in tune with every move I make
So in love

I am flying again
I can see the water fall below
I can fly there
I can stay here for hours and hours
But can not wait any more
The desire to Merge with the waterfall so strong
All of my surrounding disappears
It is only me in perfect harmony
I can merge now
Time stops
I can sense the infinite joy of life
I am breathless

I can die now
I can live with memory of this love